| Jun. 19th, 2005 @ 11:52 pm jsut thought you should know |
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so i realize that i have lost contact or my friend ship with most of you. some i regret, some not so much... i leave it up to you to make assumptions on which you are. i was almost convinced that we were going to be friends forever, but i had pushed my self into a group of friends - all of which had been friends FOREVER - and i couldnt really, truely have a place in the group.
i thought id tell you all; thanks for putting up with my bull shit when we were friends. even if we are never to talk ever again.. know that you were so important to me, and in some ways still are.
i will always treasure memories of times with you. over at stephs, her birthday... eating the best cake ever, going to casa bonita, steph feeling eriks legs thinking they were mine... coming back to her house and playing that game where you have to kill the zombies. or "studying" before our junior year.
all of you guys are such great people, no matter how screwed up you may think you are.
Lucy - you are so awesome, and a great friend. any boy will be lucky to have you as his girl. you just need to have more self confidence about certian things and know that you cant use your intelligence as a wall. that is what truely pushes people away, when they feel like they cant connect with you. i thought you were so cool and i tried SOO hard to impress you.. know that people WANT to be friends with you, get to know you, YOU are the one who has to make that final connection. you are so talented and gorgeous.. you will go so far in life!! i somewhat envie you for it! :)
Trisha - you were probably one of the closest friends i had in the group. you were so sincere and fun to hang out with. we had lots of problems, but i thought they would only strengthen us. then you got casey as your boyfriend and pushed all of us away. that is where we started to fall apart. then the last day of school, you gave me a pat on the back and said see ya next year. in ways that hurt, in other ways i was relieved that i wouldnt have to put up with you judgemental glares anymore. then as i thought about it, i was sad. i had truely lost one of my good friends.. i know you will do well with whatever you put your mind to... just dont let drama stop you.
Erik - if you even read this, i am not sure when you get back from greece... you were SUCH a great friend. and id like to believe that we will still talk every once and a while, if not be the best of friends. you helped me so much, listened to all of my problems and were always there to cheer me up or just make me laugh. you are so smart and kind! when you do get a girlfriend, which i know you would like very much, she will realize how special you are.
Steph - i am so glad i got to know you. i know you are never on, but i thought id put something for you incase you do decide to check it!! you are smart, funny, talented, big hearted, and just awesome. i was never afraid to call you and just be myself. i will always treasure what we had. i would love to talk with you also, but if we do loose contact, then know that you are just a special girl. hopefully your hardships will stop in highschool and you will not get hurt or sick anymore!! i think you are just one of the coolest girls i have met.
laura k - i also think that you are so cool. i am sorry i didnt get to know you better. like lucy, i tried my hardest to impress you. i wanted so badly to be friends with you, thinking that you were just so pretty and intelligent. i failed to understand why you thought you were not pretty or dating material in the 10th grade, im not sure if you thoughts have changed on that. you will also go soo far with whatever you decide to do in life. hopefully i will be able to see you when you get back!! i hope you are havin fun
thats all.. feel free to yell at me for what i said about you. |
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